Trying to keep my spirits from sinking too low ... it is no doubt another major side effect of the chemo ... my emotions are being held captive to the drugs that are coursing through my veins. Trying to turn it around and imagine the drugs eating up the negative thoughts that pop into my chemo brain. It takes energy to constantly remind yourself that this is a transient condition. I'm betting that tomorrow will be much better.
My darling buddy Tim took some days off this week to come down from SF to be here with me ... and even though I'm lousy company at present, he seems to be weathering the circumstance fairly well. It's a comfort to know that he's here.
In case you're wondering ... I posted one of the photos I took two weeks ago at the Mountain Winery - as a reminder of how comparatively great I felt back then -- and will feel soon again. Jeff Bridges and a kick-ass band. Cuz Barb nailed two 3rd row tickets and it was sooooo good to be there.
The local community gathering place, a lovely coffee house in my neighborhood - Cafe Zoe - is going to have live music all day on Sunday to commemorate 9-11. Kathleen, wonderful person and owner, asked if I would be feeling up to coming in and singing a few songs of hope and peace at some point during that day. I really would love to ... so holding it up as a goal. Looking for the fog to lift and a few songs to rise. :-)
